Time… Where does it go and how can I get more? I think that for the past year or so I tell myself that I’m going to take a few minutes to myself and I feel that I have yet to figure out how to manage.
With a very active (and talkative) 3 year old and a 6 month old my day is filled with “mommy do this” “mommy i want that” “mommy i want something else” with the baby crying in between my oldest requests. Between feedings, putting down for a nap, waking up from a nap, feeding my oldest, giving her the necessary attention she deserves, and cleaning up messes and the house I honestly don’t have much time for myself. After they go to bed (usually between 730-830) I am not far behind myself. I know I could use that time but I usually feel like I’m going to pay for that if the baby doesn’t sleep through the night or if it’s just a rough night in general. Also, after the kids go to bed I need to spend time with my husband so that takes some of the time I could spend time on myself. My husband works very long hours and we don’t get to have date nights very often due to not having family around. It has been over 6 months since we have had a date night (sad I know). This weekend will be our first time doing something on our own so I’m excited about it. We need it! We’re going to a Garth Brooks concert so it doesn’t get much better than that for us!
My oldest started preschool a couple weeks ago and that is 2.5 hours 2 days a week. This has been good for her and for me but I’ve noticed 2.5 hours isn’t very long when you consider driving there and back twice; so I haven’t fully adjusted to that either. Each school day I debate do I catch up on housework or relax (the baby is usually napping). Lately, I’ve been selfishly laying on couch, drinking my (reheated) coffee, catching up on my favorite tv shows off DVR.
Once I find some time to myself I often struggle with what I should do during that time. Do I take a nap, write/journal, read a book, pamper myself with an (at home facial, paint nails,etc), watch a tv show/movie, go for a walk,exercise? I want to do them all and honestly those are all things I feel I need from time to time. I often find that if I for instance, read a book, afterwards I feel like maybe I should have done something else. Just writing about this makes me think maybe I’m just a little crazy. I wonder if anyone else feels this way?
I’m probably slightly crazy!