Motherhood

Let’s Celebrate! She’s 1!

Well the day arrived, my youngest turned 1 last week. To say I was emotional would be an understatement.

We had a little get together with just immediate family a few days after her actual birthday so that means not only did I cry the day of her birthday but every day from the 5th to the 7th. I knew I would get emotional because I was when my oldest turned 1; however, I didn’t expect to be so emotional. I know that people say all the time that time flies when you have kids and it’s so true. I think time goes even faster when you have more than one child so this past year F-L-E-W by! There’s a country song out right now, I’m not sure the title about needing 5 more minutes for the ‘good stuff’ and it’s so true! I want 5 more minutes all the time. 5 more minutes for my parents to spend with their grandchildren. 5 more minutes snuggling them. 5 more minutes reading a book or playing with them. 5 more minutes watching them play independently or even more playing (nicely) together!

Brooklyn’s birthday was beautiful in the sense that we spent it celebrating her! She’s such a great baby! She’s a card and she knows how to get a laugh out of people. She loves her mommy, daddy, and sissy so much and it’s evident every day! She’s also feisty…don’t let the her sweetness fool you; if she wants something she will get it one way or another…or watch out because she’s fiery. I know the day is coming that she puts Carolina in her place for picking on her.

Unfortunately, Brooklyn had a little bit of a cold and was under the weather Friday and Saturday. She actually slept for only 2 hours (not consecutively mind you) or so Friday night. I’m not sure if it was her way of reminding us what it was like a year ago with her being up all night or making sure baby #3 wasn’t coming anytime soon reminding us what a newborn is like. I felt so helpless for the little babe though. She didn’t want to be held, she didn’t want to be alone, and she couldn’t sleep…. So she screamed….LOUDLY! I’m truly surprised she didn’t wake up the whole house; apparently whoever built my parents house insulated it very well!

Her birthday was on Thursday and we just celebrated her all day! We had cake after dinner and my parents gave her their gift to her then; which was a minnie airplane ride. Her party Saturday was unicorn theme and my oldest loved it as much as Brooklyn did. I made her a little smash cake that was all hers and the main cake was phenomenal. I had it custom made and it was almost too pretty to eat but boy oh boy I’m glad we did because it was the best cake ever! The detail she put in to the cake, the glitter, macaroons, the coloring, the candy pieces…. it was phenomenal! The inside was a strawberry moist cake with whipped layers with fresh strawberries inside. If you are in the Indianapolis area and you need a cake you should totally check her out! https://www.facebook.com/cakesindianapolis I was shocked at how involved she was with opening presents because my oldest didn’t seem to care too much about unwrapping/opening them as she was about just playing with toys. Seeing her light up with each outfit or toy brought a smile to my heart. We could have done without the trip to the urgent care center to rule out a possible ear infection(which thankfully she didn’t have) in the middle of her party but all in all it was a fantastic day filled with hugs, kisses, snuggles, and a few tears too.

My baby turned 1 last week and I still can’t believe that I’m 1. a mom and 2. a mom of two girls!! How crazy a life can change in 4 years. Speaking of which now I get to start planning my oldest daughters 4th birthday for the end of May! Oh my goodness how is she turning 4! More to come on that one later!

Motherhood

First Birthday Pressures

My daughter turns 1 next week! hold on….WHAT? Even typing that sentence seems so bizarre to me. I flash back to dreaming of having a child one day; to thinking it would never happen to me; to finding out I was pregnant; to delivering her….Now it’s her first birthday! I simply can’t understand how fast time seems to fly by. We all have 24 hours a day so how can 24 hours sometimes feel like 24 seconds. I’m experiencing a flood of constant emotions that I feel daily. I’m sure I’m alone with any of the feelings going into her first birthday!

One thing I am struggling with is her actual birthday party that I have scheduled for next Saturday. I’m already finding myself frustrated with various things; and people. I’m nervous that it will be a complete disaster. Even the weather shows that it could rain EVERY DAY next week? Why????

I feel an enormous amount of pressure to make it look like an effortless event. Thank you pinterest and over achieving moms! Why do I put this kind of pressure on myself? My husband could care less what we do (not that he doesn’t care about her or her birthday but he doesn’t care about decorations, etc). Since my husband doesn’t really care about the theme, decorations, etc… he doesn’t give much input into the whole thing. That’s frustrating to me. I don’t know if it’s partly because my mom always threw great parties (nothing extravagant; just good parties with family mostly) and so I feel like I have to match those? She keeps asking me what I have planned so far. “um, nothing yet.” her reply… “you better start deciding”… yes mother I get that [flash forward to me telling my daughter the same thing…. that’s scary… I am my mother I know].

I was going to create this great theme with coordinating food and decorations…. but she’s turning 1! She’ll never remember this party. Does this thought make me a bad mother. Should I be going overboard with this birthday because it IS her first one, She’ll never have a first birthday again? UGH the struggle is real. I think I would rather use that money for future parties where she can actually truly participate in the fun. Therefore I have decided to just do a color theme and keep things on the simple side. That just worries me that it’ll be cheap looking or look half ass.

I never thought planning a birthday party would be so difficult. Guess I better stop talking about what I think I want to do or should do or could do…. and actually get stuff together! Wish me luck!

p.s. I wonder how many tears I will shed thinking that she is turning ONE!

Motherhood

An apple a day….

Baby girl and I have been visiting my parents house again and while here I wanted to celebrate my dad’s birthday dinner I wouldn’t see him on the actual day. I struggled with what to get him as he has everything and what he really would enjoy I simply just can’t afford.

As ‘daddy’s little girl’ I sat back and thought about what my daddy would want… Something homemade, something sweet…. A pie. My dad loves a good pie and I love to bake.

I could have gone the easy route and made a blueberry pie that I’ve made him numerous times before but I wanted a ‘fall’ dessert.

One thing to know about me is I’m kinda obsessed with ‘the Pioneer woman’… I secretly want her life.

Well on her website I found a recipe for a Caramel apple pie

. I did make a few slight modifications for instance I used Arabia for sugar and similar brown sugar. For caramel topping I used a salted caramel topping (smuckers simply delight). I also used gala Apple’s as that is what I had from orchard already. This recipe was enough to make 2 9″ pies.

Served warm with a rich vanilla ice cream!!! Omg perfection.

If you’re like me and you like to make something new for thanksgiving each year this recipe is a must try.

Enjoy!!-

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