Motherhood

Happy Mother’s Day 

Yesterday was my first mothers day since my daughter was born.  I found it to be a very emotional day.

I’m so blessed to celebrate my first mothers day with my daughter. I don’t see this as a day for me but for her and I! Becoming a mother has been everything I expected and so much more. My heart is so full with love and I have found this peace and completeness in my soul that I wasn’t expecting. Before I had her the thought of dying meant that everything stopped there; my story is over. After having her, I don’t feel that way. She carries on my story and will continue on long after I’m gone. There is something very comforting in that. At the same time, having a child has made me realize how precious life is and that I hope to not miss a minute of her growing up. By becoming a mother I’ve discovered fears I didn’t know I had and a love that I just didn’t know existed. My lifetime simply isn’t enough to fully express what Carolina means to me. I love being able to spend all my days with her.

Becoming a mother also gives me a greater appreciation for my own mother and I thank her immensely for everything she had taught me. I have a great role model for motherhood.

I’ve mentioned before that being a mom is a lot of guess work and thinking on your toes… I may not always know the right thing to do but everyday I get up and try to be the best mom I can be and create memories that will last her and I a lifetime.

I spent the day with my daughter and I couldn’t imagine doing anything different. She makes every day so much fun. We didn’t do much but we spent the day as a family; which in the big scheme of things is the best gift/present I could get.

My husband took me to lunch and to get sushi of all things so I was very excited about that! I gorged myself on sushi and left ready for a nap; which all of us did! 🙂

While we were at lunch I could tell others were there celebrating mothers day as well. It hit me at that moment, that I was part of this ‘club’; the club of mothers. Yes, I have celebrated mothers day with my mom every year that I can remember…but this was the first time I got to experience it as a mother myself. In years past, especially after getting married and wanting a baby for so long, mothers day was more of a reminder that I wasn’t a mother. Selfishly it felt like a slap in the face in a way. That isn’t to say that I didn’t appreciate showing my mother some extra love and attention on mothers day, but if you have ever been in the position of wanting a child for so long and not thinking it was going to happen for you, holidays are hard. Especially holidays like mothers day, fathers day, etc.

Finally, I got my blessing and she is everything I prayed for. I think about her and I could cry such happy tears. I have thanked God every day since I found out I was pregnant and every day since she was born for her.

Her smile is everything! Her whole life lights up; and I hope she never loses that!

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To all the mothers, mothers to be, step moms, dads who play the moms role as well, everyone that cares for a child, I hope you had a great mothers day!

Motherhood

So much to be thankful for/happy 6 months

I don’t know just where to begin. I’ve had such an amazing holiday weekend. Having my daughter here had made the holidays brighter. So excited about Christmas! We didn’t do anything major just came down to Indy to stay at my parents house. They adore their granddaughter. My brother came down and we actually celebrated thanksgiving on Friday because my brother is a Firefighter and had to work on Thursday. This was actually really nice since we weren’t rushed getting down to Indy on Thursday.

My baby girl also turned 6 months old. She’s becoming such a fun little girl. Interacting with me and others more. Always laughing and babbling on about something. When she sleeps she’s breathtaking.

Over the past month she has started to do the following:
Makes gurgle sound
Loves oatmeal
Pushes herself up very well
Laughs at everything
No more bald spots
‘sings’ herself to sleep
Recognizes daddy when he gets home

We got her 6 month winter/christmas theme pictures on Saturday. I’m so impatient to get them. We ended up being there for 2 hours and did 7 or 8 outfits. Wowza. The photographer took over 300 pictures. So stoked.

As we steer packed up and ready to head home I’m torn because I hate leaving my parents house but it will be nice to have our old routine back.

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I hope everyone out there in blog world had a wonderful holiday and safe travels wherever you went!!