Motherhood

Let’s Celebrate! She’s 1!

Well the day arrived, my youngest turned 1 last week. To say I was emotional would be an understatement.

We had a little get together with just immediate family a few days after her actual birthday so that means not only did I cry the day of her birthday but every day from the 5th to the 7th. I knew I would get emotional because I was when my oldest turned 1; however, I didn’t expect to be so emotional. I know that people say all the time that time flies when you have kids and it’s so true. I think time goes even faster when you have more than one child so this past year F-L-E-W by! There’s a country song out right now, I’m not sure the title about needing 5 more minutes for the ‘good stuff’ and it’s so true! I want 5 more minutes all the time. 5 more minutes for my parents to spend with their grandchildren. 5 more minutes snuggling them. 5 more minutes reading a book or playing with them. 5 more minutes watching them play independently or even more playing (nicely) together!

Brooklyn’s birthday was beautiful in the sense that we spent it celebrating her! She’s such a great baby! She’s a card and she knows how to get a laugh out of people. She loves her mommy, daddy, and sissy so much and it’s evident every day! She’s also feisty…don’t let the her sweetness fool you; if she wants something she will get it one way or another…or watch out because she’s fiery. I know the day is coming that she puts Carolina in her place for picking on her.

Unfortunately, Brooklyn had a little bit of a cold and was under the weather Friday and Saturday. She actually slept for only 2 hours (not consecutively mind you) or so Friday night. I’m not sure if it was her way of reminding us what it was like a year ago with her being up all night or making sure baby #3 wasn’t coming anytime soon reminding us what a newborn is like. I felt so helpless for the little babe though. She didn’t want to be held, she didn’t want to be alone, and she couldn’t sleep…. So she screamed….LOUDLY! I’m truly surprised she didn’t wake up the whole house; apparently whoever built my parents house insulated it very well!

Her birthday was on Thursday and we just celebrated her all day! We had cake after dinner and my parents gave her their gift to her then; which was a minnie airplane ride. Her party Saturday was unicorn theme and my oldest loved it as much as Brooklyn did. I made her a little smash cake that was all hers and the main cake was phenomenal. I had it custom made and it was almost too pretty to eat but boy oh boy I’m glad we did because it was the best cake ever! The detail she put in to the cake, the glitter, macaroons, the coloring, the candy pieces…. it was phenomenal! The inside was a strawberry moist cake with whipped layers with fresh strawberries inside. If you are in the Indianapolis area and you need a cake you should totally check her out! https://www.facebook.com/cakesindianapolis I was shocked at how involved she was with opening presents because my oldest didn’t seem to care too much about unwrapping/opening them as she was about just playing with toys. Seeing her light up with each outfit or toy brought a smile to my heart. We could have done without the trip to the urgent care center to rule out a possible ear infection(which thankfully she didn’t have) in the middle of her party but all in all it was a fantastic day filled with hugs, kisses, snuggles, and a few tears too.

My baby turned 1 last week and I still can’t believe that I’m 1. a mom and 2. a mom of two girls!! How crazy a life can change in 4 years. Speaking of which now I get to start planning my oldest daughters 4th birthday for the end of May! Oh my goodness how is she turning 4! More to come on that one later!

Motherhood

Last First Birthday???

If I could put off April 5th approaching I would for…well eternity. If someone looked up ‘type A’ in a dictionary my face would be there. I check every characteristic trait for this personality. I do not procrastinate and I over plan EVERY.THING. However, I am procrastinating and have no solid plans for my baby’s first birthday!

Yes, I’m busy with a toddler and a baby. My oldest is in dance school once a week and preschool two times a week. My baby doesn’t sleep on a consistent basis so some nights I sleep great and other nights not so much (I wish she would give me a heads up prior to not sleeping so I could be prepared…. BUT you know how that works). Both girls have had colds for the last week so if you are a mom you know that sick kids is exhausting all in itself. My husband and I are trying to put our house on the market and try to save for a new house. There’s a lot going on that would make planning a birthday party difficult and reasons to procrastinate. Even with all those things going on it is not the reason I’m procrastinating. I know deep in my heart I don’t know if this will be my last first birthday,and so I want to avoid it. This statement causes so many emotions in me. I hope it’s not and I pray that it’s not the last one; but only He knows what is planned for our family.

At the beginning of 2018 I was excited for her birthday, planning such a fun family day. I remember planning Carolina’s (who is almost 4-year-old now) first birthday like it was yesterday. I was emotional about hers too but in a different way. It was my first baby having her first birthday! I knew it was very likely that there would be another baby in the future somewhere. But this time, while I hope there’s more children in my future I don’t know. My excitement has turned more into sadness that she may be my last baby. My husband is on the fence about having a third (but I think I can convince him). To him, a 3-year-old who is above all incredibly sassy and hard-headed along with a baby who isn’t quite sure she wants to sleep through the night consistently, he isn’t quite sure he has the patience for another. Honestly, I don’t either on those hard days but gosh, the thought of never feeling a baby kick inside, or hold after he/she is born, the new baby smell and sounds…. I could cry thinking about that.

I know I can’t stop time or postpone it so I am almost done planning it. She is having a unicorn theme birthday and I went all out ordering a customized birthday outfit on etsy (embarrassingly paying more for it than I ever thought I would:/). I told my husband I just had to because this may be the last one! Luckily, he just goes along with my reasoning for things and just shakes his head. Bless him. I have the big 1 balloon, unicorn balloons, table decorations, unicorn cake being custom-made for her. I will be making her own little unicorn cake just for her. So things are coming together and I know it will be a beautiful day spent with family. I will cry happy and sad tears. I love watching her grow but I LOVE this stage she is in (plus the longer I can hold off on that ‘3 year old’ stage the better).

My sweet sweet Brooklyn Raine! I have loved every moment with you! And cannot not wait for the upcoming year with you! brooklyn